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Hi Michael , I remember you ...you are Michael Japan right ? back then IIRC your avatar was a golden retriever ... Sure we used to talk every once in a while ...I was a beginner and you helped me out along the way Yeah , you Chaz , Ed MC....Sonic , Jeff M. and "M", were some of the regulars posting good music . Sorry about your loss of Sonny ...if you want to talk about him here by all means you are welcome to . Whew the grief and all that goes along with it sure is a tough one to swallow when I have a lump in y throat , thankfully celebrating is starting to come around as a welcome emotion . thanks for sharing the Love Yes how very true Bob ! thank you for reminding me of what I have to look forward too once I can get through some of these sucky mood swings of grief I'm having .. Hi Leadfoot , I agree with you "There's no advice anyone can really give at a time like this" . Sorry about your loss a few years ago . FWIW, I can't even trust my mind right now because it is so far up it's own AZZ looking for answers on subjects the mind can't even comprehend ... My fricking mind ..it just want's a quick answer so it can tidy up all my stray feelings about my dog Duke VIA Compartmentalization ... I want to feel my feelings and release them naturally.... so shut mind lol thanks for rapping w me Hi Dave , Thanks for having a kind thought and word to say ... Yes it can be a real heart break loosing a pet , I'm sorry for your loss being that traumatic. I do understand it and I have gone a while w out a pet a few times in the past . I have no idea what I'm gonna do ...Duke was my whole family .... Its funny you bring up a tortoise .. Recently I saw a few pics of Sylvester Stallone showing off his 2 turtles that he had in Rocky ..he still has them and they are starting to get pretty big ...lol judging by the looks of them they might out live us all lol. thanks for sharing Kenny

Yes I agree with you . Thank you Craig ! Gregy ! thank your for sharing your empathy w me . Hi Craig ! Man what I would give to have another day with Duke ...Yet I know in my heart he moved on and his Spirit is now free. Thanks for the kind thoughts and words . Oh Yeah he got under my skin by working his way deep in to emotional places of Joy and Happiness I didn't even know I had ... On the flip side of the coin , he was rather stubborn ...he brought me into the championship rounds of our relationship . Our situation was full spectrum ... thank you for the kind word ...I'm still fugly ....somethings just don't change ... As we used to say " the drunker you get , the better we look , and the better we sound " Hi JohnG , Thank you for sharing your story about Trigger . ...Wow 21 years old .....impressive . It was good that you got to hold him while he drifted off to sleep . I'm at a point now where I can look at some of the good times we had and not get all choked up ... Last night I took our typical walk through the neighborhood and when I got back to my place I sat in our spot and watched the sun go down ....Watching the sun go down was part of a routine we had done just about every day ... I felt so much better doing that because yesterday I was hurting and I didn't watch The Sunset . thank you for sharing . synkrotron ! There is a part inside inside of me (surfacing) that feels OK about this whole experience and process . I can't even try to describe the fact that my mind is trying to understand something it is not able to understand ...life , death , the bond of love ....Yet , I have noticed at times in between the emotional water works , I have been feeling a sense of relief concerning the idea that my dog is no longer suffering ...there is Peace in my Heart when I go there . Thank you for posting your message . I hope to be back in a few hours , Kenny

Hi S.L.I.P. ! thanks ...he made his way into some of the pics you posted that i nicked and changed around ...Hey all the girls in your pics got their butts sniffed by him If i was lucky i got sloppy seconds ...take care ... emeraldsoul ! I look back on that day and I go wow I was able to intuitively handle the situation in such a way as to give Duke the chance to go out on a high note .... Duke liked the vet and his assistants a lot . He acted as if we were at a party in his honor ...I was amazed at his attitude , he was friendly and he did not resist anything that was happening in the room . As he absorbed the second shot ... he came nearer to me and placed his head in my right hand and fell asleep ... thanks for the kind word ... I have to go now ...the plumber turned back on my water... Kenny

Yes ensconced ! it took me a few days to realize I set him free ...no more suffering and pain for him ...me I got a lump in my throat . It starts at the very tip of my head and go's all the way down to the tip of my toes . Thank you for the kind thoughts Hi Mesh , thank you for being here .. Thank you Steve ! much appreciated all the best , Kenny PS I'm posting these 3 real fast because they are on a different page from the bulk posts ...I don't want to take the chance of loosing posts when I have to quote from page 2 ..

Thank you all for having sent the kind thoughts and words you have expressed here . I miss Duke terribly . Hearing how a few of you got through your own personal grief has given me the hope I may get to the other side of my grief . I would like to thank each and every one of you personally VIA a quoted response to what you have posted here . Currently I am in no position to do so ... I'm hurting right now . When I feel a little stronger I will come back and show you the respect you deserve for having sent your kind thoughts of comfort my way . all the best , Kenny

Hello forum members , thank you for showing your concern and empathy for my situation regarding my dog Duke . Today at 4: 15 I took Duke to the vet and he was put to sleep ... I was grateful the Vet was able to see us at 4 PM ...the very thought of waiting until Monday or Tuesday to book an appointment with the vet for later on in the week just did not sit well with me ... Even though Duke couldn't tell me verbally he was suffering I could just tell he was ...so I wanted to give us both a few memories before our final moments together came to a close . An hour and a half before out appointment I decided to run to the store and buy a steak .I cooked that bad boy up and Duke and I had our last meal together. I wanted to do everything I could with Duke so I took him to his favorite place to hang . While there we both enjoyed our time together just watching the day to day activities of other dog walkers , cars driving by and children playing in the playground . Then I took him for a short walk and once he was done with his assault on the bush I gave him his favorite ball to chew on as I let him into the back seat area of my car ... Once I got him in the car he was so happy to have his face in the wind ...I was smiling through my tears as I watched his floppy ears flapping like 2 bird wings zig zagging across the sides of his head while his large mouth turned into a doggie suction parachute where sucking in the breeze made his lips get gigantic and his cheeks puffed out like a hamster that tempo matched his cheeks to a strobe light .... Once we got there I knew I was doing the right thing by setting him free ... I did hold on to him while he went to sleep and for about 10 mins afterward ... I 'm having a tough day so I want to say thank you for listening , Kenny

I am going through a rough time over this whole situation with my dog ...my heart is breaking into a thousand little pieces every day . thank you for the kind word . I spoke to the Vet yesterday , the writing is clearly on the wall . The time has come .. I'm saying my good byes to Duke every day now .. We are both trying to pack in as much quality time as we can with each other with the time we have left . I have to let him go and I feel like I'm loosing my child . thanks for the kind word , Kenny

Yes ,I agree w you . I like the name of Miss PIGGY for you much better than I like the name of miss pigs! It has more sizzle . Kenny

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Lets face it . There ain't no easy cure for Bass Face . Kenny

OMG I come home and you didn't tear up anything . The garbage is still under the sink , my boots are still boots not sandals and there are no bite marks on the wooden furniture .If that ain't enough , you didn't mark your territory and I haven't smelled or found a poop anywhere ... Who has been a good Doggie ? A very good dog you are . Come here and let me hug you because you are my Good Dogie Dogie and I love you ..... Oh my, you smell so clean and you taste so good . Did you take a shower ? Woof woof

Good move Steve, for me it has been almost 4 years. Best of Luck to you , Kenny

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Dang ! this fig leaf is making my jeans way too tight ..somethings gonna have to go Kenny

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That was certainly decent music for almost 40 years ago ...heck 37 years ago I was humping a rake on the only MTV video I was ever in ...at least you got to play You sell your friend a Rickenbacker and because of a little greed on his part he turned the Rickenbacker into a Dickenbacker... Some friend ...actually that's how it was back then .... I sold my 1960 Gibson 335 to a friend that owned a guitar shop for $1, 000.. in 1978 .. A year later I get a phone call from a guitar player asking me if I thought my old 335 was worth $3.500.. I told him yeah I thought it was ... ( to this day I'm sorry I ever sold that guitar ) Last week I see and add for a similar 1960 335 dot marker w PAF's on a very reputable web site going for $38, 000..... I don't even want to get into how many vintage guitars I have sold at market value in a market that was affordable only to find out that dozens of my Tele's and Strats from the past were now going for 5 digit numbers in a new over priced vintage market ......WWWwwaaaaaaa ... Hey Dave , you got off easy w the Ric...those were always expensive guitars Kenny

Thanks for the kind word and thought Ed , I have always enjoyed his participation here on the forum because I know people would rather hear from him instead of me ... emeraldsoul yeah older dogs , that is sure a sweet time in their lives when they are healthy .thank you for wishing us the best . Hey S.L.I.P. ,I have been there in the past myself ...you mentioned having been there means a lot to me ...it reminds me we can get through this to the other side no matter how painful it may appear in the moment . Hi Sheens , Yes it's a tough one having to go here. ( again ) I feel very blessed to be able to spend my days and nights w Duke , hugging him up and giving him kisses all hours of the day and night has helped me look no further then the moment we are both living as the moment unfolds ...when I go into the future and think about where we are both gonna end up I cry ...my poor fella needed a towel for his head because I held on to him so tight while I was crying a few times ... note to self cry in secret ...or at least in a different room away from Duke Hi Andy , thanks for the empathy . Yes I agree w you Our pets are more than just a pet . They are a much loved member of the family ... Duke has been more like a guardian angel too me ... I was slipping through the cracks . When he came into my life I thought I was rescuing him .The truth is he wound up rescuing me . Sorry to hear about what happened to you and your family InstrEd ...I'm there now pre putting duke to sleep ....now everything is starting to make me cry .. I saw Seabiscut for the 10 th time a few days ago ...man when it got to the end of the movie where Red / Tobey Maguire narrates how everybody thought they were taking a broken down horse and making him better ...and how it turns out that Seabiscut took a group of broken down people and they all got better together had me crying a river ...that's exactly what Duke has done for me ... Hey Craig , don't be bummed . Duke and I have been suffering over here in silence ..When you asked about him over in the Pun thread I knew I had to start this thread . One thing for sure is with out taking care of Duke from the very beginning I may not have made it this far ...we got to where we are now only because took care of each other ...I'm doing my best to stay strong and if that ain't enough so be it if I fall apart I hope I get put back together right this time . thanks .. Hi Bill! , thanks for the kind word . Wow going on 16 for a dog is very good and yet I do know how you feel when you look at your dog . My last dog before Duke Lucy lived to be 15 1/2 years old . About the last year and a half of her life turned out to be all about pain management ....When she started going down hill pain wise I felt heartbroken seeing the health changes in her ..I was grateful that a friend helped make it possible for the vet to come to my house and put Lucy down in my very arms ... As far as Duke goes he is almost there now ....yet I notice there is a chance he can pull through for a little while longer before I have to make any final decisions . It seems the meds he is on may not cure him but they seem to be helping out with his pain .He is a little loopy and lethargic yet I can tell he hasn't given up yet . Before the meds he was giving up ..so I have noticed improvement ...will he ever be how he was ? probably not but I will take what little we have left and love him up My best to you and your dog . Hi ensconced , I know exactly how it feels ...at least in my own version of what you mentioned ...My dog Lucy passed away sometime around 2011.When ever I was home after she had passed it felt as if all the life and joy had gotten sucked out of my living space and my heart felt empty and dead .My heart also became disconnected from my memories because I didn't want to feel the pain over and over again on my trips down memory lane One day by chance while on a bicycle ride I came upon 2 horses and I started petting them ...the owner came over to me for a chat after watching for a while I was asked are you any good with horses ? I said what do you think ....I not only started taking care of those 2 horses I wound up taking care of the Gelding across the road ...3 Proxy horses that weren't mine yet I got to love them up every day ...I don't care about riding horses much but I sure love being around them... any way when that whole thing went sour I wound up getting Duke in 2013 ...he was less than 2 when I got him... thank for talking with me . Thank you very much Wibbles ! I do appreciate your kind comments Hi Tim , thank you for the kind comments . Duke was in a lot of pain before the vet put him on meds ...Dukes meds seem to be antibiotics and something to help clear up the bacteria in his colon . I got him to eat again ..turns out he likes the junky cheap azzed canned food over me cooking him chicken breasts ... no jokes about my cooking folks LOL OK Before he looked like he had very few days left . He looked like he wanted to check out ...now he is clinging to me a lot out side the apt on walks ...inside our apt I cling to him and spend as much time holding paws with him or just having my hand close to him ... I sure hope there's a doggie heaven and that I will see him again one day ...because if I find out there is no such thing as a doggie heaven I'm gonna be pissed .. Then I'm gonna have to make a hard ball decision...what color convertible am I gonna rent to drive on out to The Grand Canyon w Duke ? Cause if I have to go there I'm gonna give that gas pedal a good mash with my right foot as I grab Dukes Paw as we aim straight for the horizon and pull our own version of a Thelma & Louise...no red flags here just a tactical assessment of a choice I'm not allowed to make any way here's a couple of Duke Shots when he was having better days ... Duke is whispering in this photo but I will tell you what he said to me Kenny learn how to play in the key of A Minor and The World will be yours I asked him have you been reading Bayoubill 's posts again ? ....he crossed 2 fingers on his paws and Barked out Busted ... thank you all Kenny

I would love to get my van to the point where it is functionally and mechanically sound . Every place I lived since I left Cali had a clause in my lease stating I'm not allowed to work on my vehicles on the apt complex property ....The type of work I would need to get done would mean I would have to take my Van someplace safe away from the apt complex to do the work I needed to do . I hate to say it but in my current position it would take my throwing lots of money at it. The thing is I have a sentimental feeling towards this Van because I became homeless in NYC in 95 . I was given the van by someone who thought it was better than sleeping on the street ( something I know I couldn't have done ) It's funny when I got my van it was on it's last legs and beat to hell ...when it was in NY it couldn't make it from Manhattan to the Bronx ...after working on it a bit I rolled the dice and drove it clear across The United Snakes of America in October of 1997 and to my utter shock w both made it ...I had every musical instrument as cargo in there to boot ... Man talk about taking a chance and rolling the dice ...any way I made a promise to the van I plan to keep ...I promised the van I would fix her up ...if she got me out here ...she did now I have to keep my promise to her .... It's got a long way to go before I even think about doing the body work ...but hey I have been doing the best I can under my current circumstances .. First I heard of him . It's a long ways from South West WA to where Eric is ...as far as the brakes go yeah front disc brakes would be nice ...the thing is just before I parked my Van I had all 4 brakes done including brand new brake drums ...they will have to do the braking for now .. The 2 things I really have to do ASAP besides buying new rubber are pull the gas tank , have it cleaned out and sealed or replaced , and the killer of all killer things that has held me back is this van has 2 power steering pumps. It has the one up front like most cars but in the back end it has a pump w high pressure hoses . To replace that pump costs over 6 hundred dollars and it is a factory part ...Mine sprung a leak and it needs to be replaced ..they only sell this as a whole unit to my knowledge .When I did drive it I had to keep the front reservoir topped off to have power steering ....it all leaked out if I didn't keep checking ... Either way thanks for wishing me luck ( I'm gonna need it ) LOL Kenny

Thanks for asking I started a thread on Duke Kenny

According to the vet my dog Duke may not be long for this World Duke is close to 10 . The average age for his breed American Bulldog is 10 to 15.. Over a prolonged period of time he developed colon issues ( when I first got him I was dealing w this and other health issues . ) Rather than getting into each and every detail of what is going on, for now I will just state a current report of what is currently going on . Duke lost 20 pounds in the past 8 weeks , Duke is on all sorts of medications and I am doing everything I can to get him to eat and maintain a decent quality of life . He is so blocked up there are times he cant even get more than 10 feet where he is squatting to cut a sausage and nothing comes out but mucus and a little blood I'm all broke up inside and I have been keeping this info too myself . the burden has been too much for me to bear alone . I am not ready to give him up and I have been doing all I can to stay by his side and comfort him ..if it is his time , I will accept it thank you for listening , Kenny

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